i feel emptiness in me. my very most important part of me is missing. i've got nowhere to go, no place for me to cry. i need a shoulder to pad my head. yes..i miss you terribly. i guess this might be the worst day i've ever had in my life. maybe this is my fate. perhaps i deserve this so-called disaster. every minute i look my phone and hope there's a text from you. but up until now, there's none. i'm waiting, patiently. waiting for you to be okay. if this is my fault, well yeah..i'm truly sorry. sorry for everything. i'm not meant to be your life partner. definitely not me. i'm sorry for not being the one for you. i didn't ask for all this to happen to us. the moment you said "get off", i got myself numb as i felt the heavy part of me was flowing out from my body. i couldn't help but to regret on everything.
i deactivated my facebook account. sorry, that's the best thing i could think off right now. having an fb account makes me view your profile more often. it hurts me. probably you've hated me now. it's okay, i can accept that. i know i have to be stronger. but every time when i think of this, my tears fail to stop. oh God..help me. i'm a weak human being. guide me to be a much stronger person.
i will never call you 'syg' anymore. no more midnight calls. no more texting and outing. no more fighting. ohh..miss those moment :'( i'm not sure what will be happening next in my life. i just wait and see.
syg..i still loving you. yes..i do. take care of yourself there. hope you will have the best things in your life. i'll pray for your happiness, always. i love you, i really do :'( i don't think i can love someone more than you. take care aite? don't smoke too much per day. pray to your God always. treat your loved one with great care. keyh?
saaaaddddddddd :'(
i'm sorry blog. i don't have anymore place to cry on :'(
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