it's good to be back home. only one shitty thing that annoys me a lot, i don't touch my books when i'm home. omaga..! tv and facebook are GREAT in tempting me. *sigh* 3 tests and 2 quizzes next week. see? it's gonna be a damn hell week for me. hope i can do well.

oh games..stop pulling me over to you. you've sucked me. oh dear syg..pray for me :) lets have no fight next week.

raya is coming soon. wish i can go out often. wanna hang out with JUNEY da jobo and mumu :) and syg too. oh..i love them. mami and dadi..let me go out with them please. i'm dying for a hang out.

a confession.

i have something to tell you.

i love you. i really do. i do hate the fact that we will not be together forever. so bad as i couldn't live without you. only God knows how i feel about this. it's terrible. i feel dreadful. why am i having this kind of fate? i just wanna be with you. ONLY YOU. but alas, our religion won't let us. i'm so sorry for all these. my heart bleeds every time i think of it. so bad isn't it? but somehow, i did not take even a slight effort to forget about you. cause i love you.

i'll be leaving you soon syg. when? i don't know. only time will tell. one thing for sure, i'll love you now and always. do not worry about me. i can take care of myself later. pray for me. i'll pray for you too. hope you'll find a girl better than me. make sure she's a soleh muslim.

hope she'll be a good wife to you and a good mother to your children.

p/s: i love you.

it's so bad that i miss you :(