time passes.
even when it seems impossible.
even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise.
it passes unevenly,
in strange lurches and dragging lulls,
but pass it does.
even for me..

disappointment

my apparent description :
dull, gloomy, depressed, hopeless, despair, empty, solemn, away,

reason :
i'm not sure of both of our status and does he loves me? ohh my. i don't know!!!

conclusion :
i'm totally down to Earth!!!!!

my life is worthless without texting. with who? well, of course la GK. haizzz..Gk a.k.a 'gerek kontrak' doesn't mean anything to me. it's just a deal, a deal okayh?! and i want to get rid of the word 'kontrak'. seems to me it'll never happen. i want a real relationship, not like a black and white relationship which is clearly written on a paper, something like an agreement. blablabla.. i try not to contact or call him. let he himself seek for me first. hurmm..i just feel not good. solemnity fills me throughout the entire day. it's a bad day, very the bad day. so right now i'm listening to trance. well, i need much of beat to heat me up. no more mourning fayde. wake up from your mourn!

speaking of trance, i'm one of Dj Tiesto biggest fan. ahaa..i'm just exaggerating. have you heard of him? gosh, you should and it's a must. really.

dj tiesto is in da house..

enough said
i'm extremely not okayh right now
*$#%#^#&^*$#@
urghhhhh..wtf! cibaiii.. kimakkk..lancau aa..
get off u sucker!

lots of imysm

imysm imysm imysm imysm iimysm mysm imysm
imysm imysm imysm imysm imysm imysm imysm
imysm imysm imysm imysm imysm imysm imysm
imysm imysm imysm imysm imysm imysm imysm
imysm imysm imysm imysm imysm imysm imysm
imysm imysm imysm imysm imysm imysm imysm
imysm imysm imysm imysm imysm imysm imysm
imysm imysm imysm imysm imysm imysm imysm
imysm imysm imysm imysm imysm imysm imysm

can't wait huh?

today is soooooo not realllllllll..
OMG!! do i behave insanely today????
ouu dear.. i better keep my head back to its own normal track..

boom boom pow! chaakkk*

ahaaa~!
i just keep thinking of what's going to happen tomorrow. wee~! :D i'm happyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappy that i'm going to hang out with GK tomorow, err..perhaps i should say this morning. wait, let me see. how many times i've typed the word 'happy'? aaa..8? well, it should be more than that. yeaa2.. oohh God, this is soooo wonderful!

"fayde!!! stop dreaming about your date!" this virtual dialogue echoed in my head, NON STOP.

and again, i fail to cut my hair for some shit reason. first, the Kancil has a tiny problem. so my mom won't allow my sis to drive it. second, i'm literally not in a good mood of cutting my hair. why ekk? wtf! urghhh..i'm pretty dying for a new hair!! new hair! repeat, new hair!!! haha.. i love repeating stuff a lot. it's been like a hell staying in this home. luckily, i'll be having fun tomorrow. so it will heals my fucking-hell-of staying-at-home wound.

could you imagine, you arguing with a person just for a small matter? like err..choosing which day to hang out. so yeahh.. i did, with GK. spending 2 hours for that small matters, i feel like apa kaa? mana2 laa. as long as i can meet him A.S.A.P. uuu..sempat merajuk gik ya. haha.. luckily..my 'merajuk' has contributed a success. he pleaded me like 'plzzz.." hehee.. terer x?

now i'm listening to remembering sunday by all time low. this song is sooooo nice for i could cry when i listen to it. uwaaaa! miss my GK!! :(

showing my love to GK. nahhhhhhh..

awww* i'm addicted to love. my oh my

fayde loves everyone..
especially GK and her besties..
emmmuahhhhx! :-*
love y'all..
xOxO

missin old moment being a kid

i was supposed to make a hairdo yesterday, but fuck! the barber shop was closed. i told GK about that hairdo thingy and he was kinda suprised. Btw, he prefers my hair now then my hair short. uuu..lyke it! :)

roughly at about 2 pm, i went back to kampong. see what i've got :..

awww* cute ewh!


geng sepak takraw (+ anjing) haha :D


my big, goofy sis. ahaa~!

and me :)

ouu2..this one looks cute..
with a lil' love from Kinang and me

pheuww*

finally i'm done with what i call it blog-maintenance-progress. kinda happy with that. hope you people like it

take note!

sorieee guys..

my blog is
~under maintenance~

I know it's too late for me to say this but ermmm..

slAmAt onU gAwai

yeaa..this Gawai was just ok. but still, my Gawai 09 got its best event which is leypakkkkk! haha.. that's right! at first, it was totally boring. none of my friends came to my house. kinda sad though :( then the night came. me, elex, tony, kigen, aina and others went ngabang to 3 houses. ok la ya nak? by 12 midnight we went back to my grandpa's house. huhh..leypak2 sampe palak heng. luckily i've got stomach ache. so no alcoholic drink for me that night. babii elex nok ntam. haha.. he forced me to drink lots of glasses of carbonated drinks. 10 glasses i assume.

we ended up at 5.30 am. well, beysaa laaaa..

fayde leb her cuzzies sO muchOs!
emmuahhhx! :-*